This is a little something from my coming book.
Most of this book contains passages I’ve written either to myself or through myself.
This one is to myself.
It came through after a therapy session several months ago, in which I revisited a younger version of myself and provided him with the resources (love, comfort, guidance, acceptance, etc.) he didn’t have at the time.
All emotional discomfort is due to trapped energy within us, resulting in unintegrated emotional charges that govern our lives and shape our experience. These charges are the result of past experiences that generated emotions we suppressed, repressed, or avoided in some way.
The choice to do so often made sense at the time, but no longer serves us.
Inner-child work has been a pathway for emotional integration, which has freed me from years of emotional suffering. This passage reflects that work.
It’s written to my younger self. It’s written to you.
This passage is personal, but not unique. Be with whatever you experience from it.
Listen to me, Zachary.
I want you to know that everything is alright now.
You shut off parts of yourself in order to survive.
You did this from a young age.
It’s not that you couldn’t express your sadness and your anger.
It’s that you chose not to.
You chose not to in order to keep yourself and your mother safe.
You chose to be who he wanted you to be in order to keep yourself and your mother safe.
You abandoned yourself in the process.
Now you’re finding your way back.
You have so much love to give.
You always have.
That’s why you terrified him.
That’s why he tried to shut it down within you.
Because he shut it down within himself.
But then you carried on the task. You repressed the anger and the sadness.
And so it has lived inside of you, until now.
Because now you know that within you is a child who doesn’t feel safe.
A child who’s trying to protect himself by abandoning himself.
A child who’s trying to keep the peace.
But now you Know that you are not not safe.
And because you are not not safe, you can choose to be free.
You can choose authenticity.
You can choose abundance.
You can choose yourself.
You don’t need safety, because you are not not safe.
You don’t want freedom, because you already are free.
You’re ready to grieve. You don’t need to stop it in your higher heart anymore.
You don’t need to block your expression.
You don’t need to hide from being seen.
You don’t need to hide from anything.
There is nothing to avoid, for there is nothing to fear.
So slip off the chains you’ve continued to wear.
You’re ready to grieve for the boy.
Grieve for the boy who never grieved for himself.
You’re ready to feel for the boy who learned not to feel.
And you’re ready to welcome what he learned to avoid.
Let it arise within you. Let it ascend. Be with it.
Release the sadness that has weighed you down.
Release the energy that’s been trapped within you.
And free up room for love to flow through you once again.
Love for yourself and love for all.
Because you Know that they are both the same.
Welcome home, Zachary.
I see you.
I hear you.
I feel you.
And I love you.